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Alright. Let's get back to business. It's been a while since I last blogged. There are so many things going in my head right now. And you are right, I am back to rant. I highly doubt there will be any readers anyway.

Before I begin, let me just clarify one thing. Many feel that it is absolutely inappropriate for a guy to blog. For instance, "What? He blogs? Why the hell would he needs to blog?". But hey! Let's not be judgmental there. This is just a perfect place to rant when one does not wish to bug others with his/her very own ridiculous, lifeless thoughts. So, do not judge people who blogs. To be fair, I will not judge you for having casual sex too. Well, just saying. :)

(1) GE'13

I am not gonna talk much about it since I have limited knowledge about what's actually going on in Malaysia. My sources of information are Facebook, online websites and random videos. Just my very own conclusion, politic is dark and dirty. And when people are desperate, they will do whatever it takes to get what they want.

(2) Exam

My 2 1/2 years struggle in IMU means nothing. Why? Yes, I have another exam to prepare for when I get to Leicester. Believe it or not, you will be kicked out from the course if you do not pass the examination. Hence, let's refer the exam as 'THE ENTRANCE EXAM". I am definitely at a disadvantage as the format of the examination differs from IMU. Oh, save me already.

(3) Taiwanese drama

As I was searching for dramas on the website, I came across this interesting Taiwanese drama titled "Two Fathers". And I went "wtf? gay show?" Besides, I saw a familiar actor name and hence, Google came into the scene. Oh, my apologies. Google says it is not a homosexual themed show. So, the drama mainly revolves around two best friends who apparently slept with the same woman. The woman then left them with a baby girl. Now, the question is 'Who is the father?'. We don't know. Ya think the script writer will reveal it that soon? The two best friends then decided to raise the kid together. Hence, the title "Two Fathers". On a side note, as the story progresses, the two main actresses are slowly integrating into the fathers' family.

This drama just got me thinking. Is it even possible for something like that to happen in reality? Nah, I strongly refute this storyline. NO! It is not possible. Well, that's simply just MY opinion. Haha. Another chain of thought strikes, hmm, what about platonic relationship then? Putting that aside, is it alright to conclude that friendships are all revolves around benefits?

The end. :)

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Yawns. It's holiday? It's not exactly a holiday. Or at least not with the postings and all.

God damn it. Human relationships are just too complicated. Haha. If only I'm a caveman, i will be living a life with animals and it'll be so much more simple. Just when I thought mixing around is alright, a rock hit hard enough to sink every ideas! Reality!

Ok. Maybe it's time to sit back and relax. Haha.

Out of no where?

I really didn't want to update my blog! Ahha. But just couldn't help it. In the mood to jot some "notes" here. Being
in IMU made me realized alot and the people in Imu also taught me well about reality.

It's time to make use of my BM. Bak kata pepatah, "banyak orang banyak ragam". Let's not talk about the world or society. Just in a small university itself, it will have a thousand types of different people with different personalities.

Haha. Ok. Mood to write is gone now. Shall just stop writing here.

Experience

I have no idea why am I writing this now when I'm sorta dead tired. Well, I guess it's just the after-event hype? Haha. Experience my first
on-call. Sadly not as a doctor but a student. I was mistaken as a HO. How i wish I am one already!

I was hoping for something to happen throughout the night but there wasn't any sudden, special cases. Lol. My apologies for being an ass who learn stuffs from patients' pain.

Oh well, the highlight of the night was that I got screwed at 1 in the morning. Bombarded with questions and was asked to examine a patient. Like heck I know how to perform a neuro examination! Well, it's partly my wrong for not preparing myself before attending the three weeks elective.

Slept a total of three hours and got up for the grand round. Nothing much after that. Got back and napped for 2 hours. Now, I'm still feeling exhausted. I wonder how am I gonna keep up with this lifestyle for the rest of my life! Haha.

I shall speak a little of my on-call MO. He was being an ass all the time. Well, I would say with good intentions though! He was just trying to pressure me and push me to think out of the box and link everything together. Haha. And of course, who likes being scolded? But I got the message. Thanks for everything. The dinner, the neuro book and the lessons. :)

Hmm

I guess I shall start blogging once more. Shall start writing everything that happened in the past few months all in one post. Ahah. Hopefully I will have the patience to recall and write them out! Way to go!

Someone like you

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

You're tough,

You're stubborn.

Yes, it's you.

EOS 3. LOL!

I need to pass this exam.

I am lost.

Will I make it through?

Crap

Recently, I ran out of stuffs to crap! Hence, that explains the lack of updates.

Updates that only I read. Heh!

Realization!

I have come to realize that I will not be given a second chance if I fail.

SO, I can't afford to fail! Woo!

And you!

I do not know what to do about you!

Actually I know what I wanna do about this, but I can't risk it all.

Undeniable, if this starts, it will be a distraction!

Yawns. Why can't I control time?

Time. Being the crucial factor.

Haha.

Done crapping. :)

Some pics from IMU Cup closing ceremony(in random orders, lazy to arrange them):

Retards.

Lijin. :)

This is a good pic!

Light will guide you home, Jie Cong.

The cheerleaders of the night! Plus random Jane.

;)

The reunion of the Bu4-ians in IMU!

We started off with this!

The shorties!

Captain Huei-Wen!

Naked Jane! LOL! Haha!

Lousy dude trying to act sexy.

I wonder who is he trying to seduce. ;)

Study

Can I study like there's no tomorrow?
The answer is clearly a NO.
Damn it.
At this rate, I'm gonna fail in no time.
AND NO. I can't afford to fail.
So shut the hell up and start doing something about it already!
Stop complaining.

Random note. LOL.

Masked?

So much of not being from the same group.
But laughter all over with the rest.
I wonder which is the 'real' you? I meant WE wonder who are you?
Unmask yourself, be yourself.
One day people will stop trying.
Me?
I stopped trying. Or rather partially stopped. Hahaa.

But the underlying reasons are the one that attract me the most for now.
And once those reasons are gone, this will be gone in the wind!
WOOO!

RANDOM! :)

Betrayal

I rather you betray this whole thing once and for all than to keep things in suspense. Make a stand already!

Then things will be easier for everyone as life goes on. Haha.

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Can't wait to see the end products!

A nuisance

Slowly and unknowingly, one became a nuisance to another.

But as one said, can't cut it so keep it.

In fact, one is at his/her limit.

It just can't be helped!

It turns out to be a push-push situation.

NOT giving up.

Yawns. My studies is going downhill. Help!

Never easy

It's never easy to hang on to something for a long time. Especially when the situation is not in your favor. Or rather the situation was NEVER in your favor. So are you gonna give up? Or hang in there, hoping that miracle will happen?

I, for one, do not have a definite answer. I'm still searching for one though. But for now, I guess I am still in it. Perseverance. Does it pay off? Will if pay off in the end? Who knows? There's a 50:50 chance. It's either a desirable outcome or a non-desirable outcome.

Before the answer is found, hang on in there yo! :).
Be it anyone, be it anybody.
I am not giving up...yet? Heh!!

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I GOTTA STOP SLACKING AND START STUDYING! -.-

Need to start the library sessions and isolation plan. -.-

Yawns again

Hmm. Nothing much going on today. Besides that I'm lag behind in my studies. Haha. Work harder, work harder.

Damn. It's difficult to proceed with plans when I'm uncertain of my next move. Make a wrong move, and you fall straight to hell.

What's the point of meeting again? Nah, it's pointless. It has always been pointless I guess. It's just for the sake of convenience! A friend is better than an enemy. That's the only thing I can see.

Everyone is so unapproachable nowadays. Even the people around me, i can no longer read them. Not exactly mind reading, but at least get to know them better? Nope, everyone is putting on a mask. So should I! Haha. Po-po-poker face!

War on!

Settled

Alright. Both dilemmas settled.

Hmm. I did what I could.

Haha. Yawns.

Highlight of the day!

Some random dude we met at Broga whatsapp and I am known as SOONG WAI.

It's time to fake my identity.

Stories telling time! Woo.

Yes I am that lifeless. LOL.

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Shouldn't have said anything!
Guilty as charged.

Now, I owe you an apology.

Dilemma

There are two situations in my head now.

Both are somewhat similar.

It's all about taking the initiative or not.

It's worth it?

Yawns.
If only I can rely on a coin to get my answers.

But no! I have to learn to make up my mind and decide what's best for all!

Grow up!

The point of no return

Damn sien of everyone backing out last minute. Hence, I will make sure that this will kinda be my last time doing it. Let's drop it and move on. It's pointless getting frustrated over matters like this when everyone else doesn't give a shit.

The point of no return.
I am not walking back anymore.
It's you or never.
Be it you, so be it.
Be it never, let it be.
It will be never.
You have your arrogance, so do I have my pride.
I repeat, the point of no return.

All those efforts down the drain,
All those sweats drop for nothing,
All those pain inflicted for nuts.

Tomorrow will be a better day. Nope. In fact, today will be a better day!
Don't expect, and you will not be surprised.

Fact

People come, people go.

Once taken, in the process of taken,

People leave.

Priorities changed, perception changed.

I guess 'it' is really blind.

On a brighter note,

flowers bloom, flowers wither.

It's funny and entertaining to witness flowers bloom.

Is it spring already?

HAHA!

One down, two down, three down.

It's entertaining,

it's cruel.

Let's us all witness the growth of these flowers!

O mama. I can't bear looking at those notes anymore.
Not that I read it for 999 times, it's just too much to remember.
Yawn
Haha. Instead of complaining, I ought to drown myself in that pile of notes eh?

Time

Once again, a race with time.

The race starts whenever exam is around the corner.

The winner?

Do I really have to answer that? Haha.

Time.

Time being the key factor to success.

You manipulate time, you're clearly the winner.

Yawns.

STUDY! -.-